Rant

Oh hell, why must someone always sound so high and mighty when he is being such an asshole dictator?

So today I was watching some Korean drama there. And someone just asked me, "since you've watch so much dramas, burn some nice one for me to watch la" to which I replied "You have no interest in Korean drama anyway". And yeap. That triggers a fucking lecture.




I was told that I shouldn't watch someone that is not benefiting me. I should watch Chinese period drama because it allows me to learn more about Chinese culture and history. Like fuck? OK I admit what I know may still be lacking, but seriously I read fucking lots of Chinese historical stories, Chinese folk tales, novels and stuff that like during primary school time when my brothers almost know nothing about them. Yet I am getting a fucking lecture on improving my knowledge on Chinese history when my brothers are playing games like nobody's business. Talk about prejudice.

Yet being a courteous and civilized person I try not to argue. I just said that I am not watching drama for learning purposes. I am just having entertainment. If I want to learn I can always read. Here goes another ridiculous comment "You can learn and have entertainment the same time". While I don't deny that, but you can only have entertainment or enjoy it if it is someone that YOU ARE INTERESTED IN. If I have no interest in it yet forcing myself to watch those period drama just for learning purposes, there's no entertainment in it.

I am still a good boy so I tried to hit around the bush, saying that they are boring because period dramas always involve hypocrites which I am fed up with. And frankly, most of the directors are bad in creating suspense so I pretty much know who did what or whatsoever the moment it is done. So I just said I don't like to watch hypocrites in action. Here comes another fucking lecture.

"It gives you insight on what real life is, and that's why the more you should watch them." Again, I tried to hold my temper and said that since I have a lot in the reality, that's why I don't want them during my entertainment time. And yeah, that someone just don't believe you face shit in your life and say "yea right. You don't even know what life is about. You need to watch them to learn how to defend yourself in the future" and it pretty much sums up "you don't know what life is" "you inexperience brat" "you can't protect yourself" "you should learn from me" bullshits like that.

I am not saying I am all that fucking good and I know I still have a lot more to learn. But I don't like the way he say it as if "oh really?" with a fucking sarcastic tone, and always trying to prove that he is better and you just suck. Oh please, I think compare to most people I know how to protect myself pretty well. Shouldn't you be concerned over other people in the house who practically speak what they think before they even filter and word their thoughts carefully? Yea. Three kids in the house and I am the only one who gets the shit.

I just shut up. I am done arguing with this fella. I know he always think Chinese history Chinese culture is all high and mighty while other cultures are bullshits. He asks us to learn about the temple structure, the ceremony, the history, the language, everything and all. I know as a Chinese I should know my culture but they way he forces it on me makes me starting to hate everything. If you want to talk about learning, there's forever something new to learn and I can't possibly learn everything. Such extensive knowledge can only last in your mind unless you are interested in it. I took pride in my Chinese lineage, but asking me to learn every single bit of history and culture like who's the emperor from which fucking period, or which sage or philosopher contribute to the Chinese education in the past or whatever, or even asking me to memorize all the San Zi Jing etc, I think it went overboard.

And it is as if watching Korean drama don't make me learn. It's just that I am learning Korean culture while you are learning the Chinese. You like yours, I like mine. Yea I know you've always discriminated against other cultures and you think Chinese culture is the only important thing. Like fuck? It's globalization era now shit? I don't think it's a bad thing to learn about other cultures as well, it's just that I am having fun while doing it. So stop imposing what you like on me, as if what I've been doing is all demonic and yours is so high and mighty. Learn to respect you fucking dictator.