Communication

When was the last time you properly communicate with your family/friends/loved ones?

It's so sad to see that the technology today actually moves people further away from one another, when its purpose of creation is to close the world gap.

Ah, I am not talking about kids staying at home chaogei whole day and forgot how to socialize in real world. (Although that probably is one of the point, but I am not elaborating on it)


Ages ago, people knew the need to communicate.
First through smoke-signalling (Well, I don't know the proper term for it so yea.)
Then came telegraphing and posting.
When people require faster and instantaneous communication, phone was mass produced (Ah yes, we 90s probably never experience mailing a letter).
Then to make calling easier, cellphones was borned. *Correction: It should be "born" I dunno what the hell I was typing before LOL*
And then when people needed to see each other's face while talking, 3G came.
Yet when people require further updates on each others' life, all the social media started booming.




Technology & Communication Today
Today, we live in an era where communication can be done almost anytime, anywhere. Even if your friend is 12 hours away from you, facebook, twitter, whatsapp, skype etc etc etc made it possible for you to connect with them instantaneously at almost zero cost. Of course, provided you have a computer...(oh wait, computer era is moving to its end, I guess people fancy mobility today. Here goes the creation of your laptop, and smartphones, and all the whatever pad or tabs)


So, internet today has made communication so easy, to the extend that we don't find the need to feel sad over graduation, or seeing your friends off at the airport, etc etc. Perhaps we no longer fear separation as we know we can communicate anytime, anywhere.

And that's why we slowly forgot the need to communicate.

Communication Procrastination?
So here's a question for you readers:  

How many times have you procrastinated catching up with people? 

"Oh his face poped up at my home page, how long has it been since I last talked to him? Ah well, I will probably talk to him next time, cause' I'm busy right now." And then you forget.

or

"She looks so down, probably I should comfort her, but well, I have things to do, maybe later..." And then she's offline, then you told yourself "maybe next time".


Well probably it makes sense because you are busy, but don't you think that the fact we can communicate whenever we want diluted the need to communicate? The need to communicate is no longer as dire as it used to be, cause' we all think that "We can still do that later".


In the past, when an old friend called, we would just put down all our work and have a 30 minutes or even 1 hour chat over the phone.

Or maybe when some friend just suddenly call for a hang out, you will just leave your house forgetting all your piling work.


From Friends to Strangers
Do you sometimes have the feel like a friend who was once so close to you, now has became a stranger that you only see his/her update on facebook? And then you ask yourself how did it happen. Or maybe I am the only one feeling it?

Or do you still live in the illusion that you are still close?

How many times have you find yourself catching up with your best friend, and only to find out you know nothing about him/her when you two meet? The akward moment when you got nothing to talk to your best friend.
 
My friend, friendship needs to be nurtured. If you find the sudden urge to talk to someone, do it now. When you procrastinate, day by day, one day you will find a gap so big that you no longer know what to talk to your once-best-friend.


Ditch your shit friends
And do be reminded that, communication requires two-way effort. Probably you bugging him/her to catch up everytime will backfire or even irritate him/her. If one side has no willingness to commit in the friendship, might as well become a hi-bye friend with him/her.

***Author's note: Okay, you probably should just stop here. Below are some thoughts that I need to let loose so it might just be some nonsense that doesn't make sense to you***



DO BE WARNED! CONTAINS USAGE OF STRONG WORDS. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.
Seriously, friends like this doesn't worth your effort to maintain your friendship. Humans are weird creatures. When you bug them all the time, they feels superior. Then they will forget about you. Probably you being a little harder to reach might loosen their ego a little.

Yet you become a little distant to them, they will start complaining that you no longer care, and then shit happens when you argue. In an argument, the loser is always the one who cares more cause' you will ended up apologizing before they do.

Worst thing to do is being the only one in the GROUP who cares. Why? Taa-daa! You plan the outing, you plan their birthday, you initiate group skype, you start a convo, once your job is over, that's it. No rewards, no chocolate for you. They just FORGET about you. If you just stop doing this, they will happily forget each others' birthday and forgot to talk to each other. True story. Then probably one or two will blame you for not planning his/her birthday so yea.

That's a shit job. So don't lower yourself to that level. Life's too precious to care about these people. They are never there for you when you need them, you're just a nobody in their eyes. They wouldn't need you to talk to them, or probably they are HAPPY with the fact that you're not talking to them. Ah gosh, why do these people exist at the first place? So DITCH these "so called friends" seriously.

Slow half beat

Ok seriously, I am damn slow to update this but,

HELL YEA! FINALS OVER!

since last Friday. And today is Tuesday. lol

I am having a one month holiday now. Feel free to ajak me out please. kekeke.



Well what have I done so far? On Friday my paper eneded at 5.40pm (Damn sad I know), and went to MV to celebrate with Mandy, Lai Yee and Wai Keong. Just four of us. XP Cause' others are still having exam. We are the kesian ones who had 3 papers in a week, but well, we suffer early and happy early. XP


Saturday was my cousin's wedding. Had a great night with my cousins. XP cause' all the young people grabbed a table and crapped like nobody's business. hahahah XD What's best is that, we went for second round after that. LOL. Sing K session in the midnight. XP (Well...although we got shoot by our parents respectively......but well, screw that. It's not like we got to hang out so often anyway.)



And yea...after that was stoning time. Stoned at home since Sunday till Tuesday. I feel like I am growing mushroom now. hahahaha. XD


So my holiday plan:
1. Watch drama/anime like nobody's business please!
2. Exercise....hehehe....I always failed this. XPPPPP
3. Hang out with friends (So u all faster ajak me pls. XP)
4. No more plan...LOL


Ok I ran out of ideas on what to blog about. So yea. Tata.

残忍

你知不知道，你真的很残忍？

早不来迟不来，偏偏考试才来捎来恶讯。

被你捅了一刀又一刀，
却还要笑脸盈盈地面对一无所知的你。


寂静的考场里，
该死的你就在我最不想想起你的时候
阴险地闪过我的脑海，打断人家的思绪
你叫我怎样专心！？
你知不知道因为你，
我这次考试要付出多少的代价？？？

感觉自己好像白痴。
真的好笨。
人家可以戒烟，戒毒，
有没有人要教我怎样戒掉你？

2PM Without U

I’m gonna get stronger
그래 헤어진 게 더 좋아
어차피 언젠간 너와
이런 일 있었을 것 같애
넌 분명 이랬을 거 같애
그럴 바에야 차라리 지금인 게 낫지
깊이 사랑하게 되고 나서
알지 않은 걸 다행으로 생각해 그래서 I’m ok
내 모든 걸 아낌없이 다 줬어
너를 믿었기에 내 모든 걸 다 줬어, 넌 그걸 버렸어
I gave you my everything 그래서 이젠

I’m gonna be ok (Gonna be ok)
I’ll be ok (Gonna be ok)
baby, without you (without you)
baby, without you (without you)
너 없이 멋지게 (없이 멋지게)
더 멋지게 (없이 멋지게)
일어날 거야 (without you)
살아갈 거야 (without you)

Listen, everything happens for a reason
Everything happens for a reason
다 른 남잘 만난 거는 이번 한 번뿐이라는
말도 안 되는 말로 보나마나 탄로 날 얘기 말고
그냥 돌아서 내가 너무 아퍼
너 를 보는 게 그만 하고 싶어
매일매일 나는 속고 있었어
네가 어떤 사람인지 조차 몰랐어
이제는 알았어 넌 사랑을 몰라 그래서 이젠

I’m gonna be ok (Gonna be ok)
I’ll be ok (Gonna be ok)
baby, without you (without you)
baby, without you (without you)
너 없이 멋지게 (없이 멋지게)
더 멋지게 (없이 멋지게)
일어날 거야 (without you)
살 아갈 거야 (without you)

왜 내게 이랬니 why?
대체 내게 왜 그랬니 make me cry
우리가 가졌던 걸 다 버릴 정도로
값어치 있는 일이었던 건 맞니
우리가 함께했던 시간들이
또 함께 할 수 있었던 시간들이
아쉽지도 않니 너는 상관없니
지금 넌 Are you ok without me?

I’m gonna be ok (Gonna be ok)
I’ll be ok (Gonna be ok)
baby, without you (without you)
baby, without you (without you)
너 없이 멋지게 (없이 멋지게)
더 멋지게 (없이 멋지게)
일어날 거야 (without you)
살아갈 거야 (without you)

Give me some time, I'll be back, lively and cool

Mood Swings

It's that time again~~!!! Yada yada...

Well I think I have PMS PES. Pre-Exam Syndrome. LOL



No don't get me wrong, I am not getting emo over my exam. But coincidentally, everytime before exam, I will think about a lot of stuff, and put myself in an emo state. (Because I don't feel like studying, I will occupy myself with other stuff, and taadaa, there goes me being emo)


Aigoo...jinjja...





And 2PM songs are making things worse. /.\ Cause' their songs are so emo that it actually fits what I feel. T_T



Conclusion: No 2PM songs during emo time.



Ok. Let's get back to studies.

Assignments

So, FIN assignment gonna due soon.

And yea, now it's suppose to be time to be busy with assignment, but I really have to shout something here...

USE YOUR BRAIN PLS! 

Seriously, I can't stand it. It's something so simple that you can just...use your logic and think. I am not talking about how to solve the questions, but I am talking about all the detailed stuff!

"Do you think I should explain Question 3 ar?" (It's totally up to you)
"Do you think I should do it in excel or words ar?" (It's totally up to you)
"Do we have to print out the formulae if we do it in excel?" (Yes, this was answered by lecturer in class)
"Do I..."


GOSH! PLEASE! You are 20 years old and you can't decide these simple stuff yourself????


And da pain in the arse when they start asking stuff like....


"For this question ar, do we need to put this figure into the calculation?" (......The lecturer even gave the final answer to you. Can't you just pls try it out yourself? If after you put in the answer doesn't match, then try removing it. It's common sense! Don't expect me to spoonfeed you pls.)

"How do you get unit sales ar?" (You can get it from the question......)




And it's not a short simple assignment. It's 10 questions devided into 2 sections. Imagine everyone start going around asking brainless question like that. And they are not asking the theory, they are asking all the "How to do ar?"

Some even go further and say "You solve dy let me know ar". So do you want me to just do the whole assignment for you? *smile smile*

GO BANG THE WALL PLS!

Like seriously? Can you all people for heaven's sake, refer to the textbook or whatever you can before you ask any question? Pls do some homework before you ask, or else you are just humiliating yourself by showing me how ignorant and stupid you are for asking such basic stuff. You are just making people looking down on your laziness.

Yes. Your laziness. 

You got it right. I don't look down on friends who can't grasp the concept. I just plainly hate lazy assholes. And in fact, you are not even close to stupid. You are smart. You are using the most effective way to solve the problem with the least effort. But yea, you are just a plain lazy ass who doesn't even bothered to try, who doesn't even worth me respecting.


And it's not like we are really close friends. We just "hi" and "bye" in uni, and when assignments come, my facebook inbox is flooded with all of your brainless questions. Yes FLOODED! Not to mention my phone, sms non stop, flooded with brainless questions, and some even from unknown alien who doesn't even care to introduce who you are.







And no, I am not against you asking me questions. All I ask from you is that you

TRY ON YOUR OWN

before asking.



I totally don't mind you asking me questions like:

"Eh, this part, if I interpret it this way I will get this answer. But if I do it that way I will get another answer. So which one should it be ar? Or both can be accepted?"


"I don't understand why did the teacher put in this term ar. Is this term just a decoration or will it affect my answer?"


"I tried doing it this way ar, but how come my answer turns out to be some alien that I can't recognize ar? Did I do it wrongly?"





Something like that. I will be more than willing to help you. So stop asking me stuff like this.

"Eh how to do ar?" 

"Eh teach me this question tmr ar"

If you do, be glad if I am even bothered to reply you. Again, don't expect spoonfeeding from me.

Eh, why don't I just do everything for you ar?

A-Bit-Failed Surprise

Planning phase:
We set up Yih Ming as the "agent" to provide us internal information. *kekeke*
And then started asking people whether they can make it for the surprise dinner.
And then Hou Yan asked many many people to write a birthday msg.

Due to the coming Mother's Day event, many people had to go for family dinner on that night. And quite little people turned out  than expected. Ah well.

Event day:
Wrapped up the present and helped Ms. Har Hou Yan on the birthday msgs. hehehe. Yea we just did that like an hour before going to our boss' house. XP
 
Was expecting at least 5 people to make it for dinner. Then our boss Mr.Wong Yewho got dinner with mom, so cannot makan. But he turned up for the surprising action. And he waited for us for half an hour, and another half hour with us to wait for KC. XP

And then YY and Kok Sheng suddenly worry about transport back. And then not joining us for dinner. X.X (Ah...YY feel bad to make her "driver" wait, and decided to go back early. That's problem between the two of them so I should zip here.)

Ms. Har Hou Yan's masterpiece. Yea all written by her. hahahha. XD (We inboxed her our wishes and she compiled them)

While waiting for Kar Chun who was away to send her grandma somewhere, we....stoned there. Made friends with the dogs ar, plants ar, and YewHo started to disassemble my car. Yeap. that's my car plate. LOL.

And yea, we aslo have a speech by YewHo. XP

And finally Kar Chun dailou is here! And then we were off to Mr. Yeow's house!




Initial plan:

First, we will get someone (Yew Shen) to wear a cap and stand in front of his gate. Purpose of wearing a cap: So that Yi Shiuan cannot recognize who is that.

Then the others will hide somewhere. And then once we are ready, we will text Yih Ming. He will then tell Yi Shiuan that someone is looking for him at the gate.

And since he cannot recognize who's at the gate, he will walk out to find out who is that. And once he reach the gate, we will all come out from nowhere!

Yea. That's what we planned.

Actual outcome:
He came out before we hide. LOL. All caught offguard. =.=" It turned out that his mom saw us outside and just tell him "Someone is outside" so Yi Shiuan came out to check. We have not even hide outselves and he saw us.

...

.....

........

EPIC PHAIL!

Oh well...he was like, "why are you all here???" "Nola, so ngam we passed by nia." swt....aduhai.....X.X

The akward moment when your surprise failed.....

We asked him jom go makan. "How you all know I am at home?" "Nola, we just zohng choi see you at home or not lo". LOL But at least we can see that he is totally blur about everything. So we got Yih Ming out to help "further clarify" things for him. XP


And yea. Some video throughout the process:

On the way

Epic fail moment

Birthday speech?

And of course la, got Yih Ming here, wait what orh? Ask him be cameraman la! XP

Group pic 1

Gorup pic 2

And after 1 hour of waiting and a 5 minutes action, everyone except KC and I left LOL. So 2 of us + birthday boy went makan at SS2 Wai Sek Gai.

Crapped. Yes that's what boys do. We told the birthday boy how the planning went and all the details to clear his blur mind. XP And then, we just crapped about girls. LOL



And apparently we have not finished crapping. So we changed a venue for dessert.

Dessert at 记得吃.

(Yeap, Ms.Ong Xiau Wei, the place we all went during Foundation I think. hahahaha XD)


And...I forgot what we talked about there. hahahaha XD

But conclusion: 3 guys, eat from 7:30pm till 9:00pm. Imagine if there's more of us. LOL


So...Happy Birthday Hengdai! ;)

Herm....

Just blogging to keep the page looks updated. heh.


But seriously, I really don't know what to blog about. I find my life getting more and more boring as the day passes by.

Like seriously, everything just seem repetitive. The 4-months-infinite-loop. New Sem -> Slack -> Study -> Mid Term -> Assignment -> Study -> Finals -> Holiday.

I am like...damn lifeless. I wanna hang out with friends, but everyone is like......MIA. Like serious shit. I almost can't find anyone to go out with me.

My previous gang in college is like...dying. Everyone has a different timetable, vola! You don't have time to go out together.

And you don't have to even mention the high school friends. They are either having a totally different schedule than yours, or studying abroad. It's so hard to coordinate the holidays and find a best time to go out.

Okay. Did I just deviated from my main point (Me being lifeless)? I guess maybe...slightly. Meh I will just continue.

Like seriously, I am whole day in front of my laptop today, but if you ask me what did I do, I am impressed by myself that I've wasted yet another 15 hours of my life (7:30am to 10:30pm). All I did was facebook, games, download/watch movies, check out the Kpop news, and yea, for 15 freaking hours. Yeap. I am impressed by myself too! I can damn waste time.





I really really should find some time to do just...do something different. I don't care even it's like a forever-alone-in-the-cinema day or what, I just need to leave my house weih.


Now I am glad that I went for a badminton session with my family during Labours' Day instead of growing fungus alone at home.

Nah! Let you see my exhausted face that I swear it's so not me like:

Ajak me out please! Someone, anyone, initiate an outing please? Kamsahabnida!

不争气

原来你的一举一动，一言一语，都能让人牵肠挂肚。

机会一次次地错过，
永远凝聚不起那勇气。
如果这是最后的结局，
我只能怪自己的懦弱。






I'll be back - 2PM

"Listen baby girl
그래 돌아서줄게 멋지게 남자답게 놓아줄게
그리고 널 귀찮게 하지 않게 말없이 저 뒤에서
죽은 듯이 서서 바라볼게 너는 모르게 그냥 멀리서
아주 많이 떨어져서 나의 존재를 네가 완전히 잊어버리게"





Tik Tok - 2PM

"아무도 몰래 사랑하는 게
니가 정말 내 여자라는 게
매일 나를 너무 미치게 해
이렇게 너를 너를 원해"

Happy B(earth)day

Annyeong! *Kpop addiction disease shit* Yesterday was World Earth Day, aka MY BIRTHDAY. XD

Kesian me I celebrated with ACC202 Assignment. 7 to 8 hours in front of computer for that pain in the buttocks.


But well, I had an awesome celebration the day before my birthday.With these bunch of awesome people, consisting of Lily, Edrea, Livia, Kah Lok, Lie Yang and Karluis! =D

They totally surprised me at my house!


To make things short, they pakat-ed with my brother, even though my brother is such a lousy actor, but he managed to pull it off cause' that day I have an appointment with my cousins.


****To make things longer with details (Skip if you are not a person who likes details):
My cousins and I were going to Loud Speaker to have some karaoke session. And Ms. Foong Lily called me to distract me. So when Edrea called my house phone, I thought my brother was on the phone with my cousin. LOL He made an obvious statement during their "secret convo". He said "he (referring to me) is on the phone" and I clearly heard that. LOL

Well logically speaking anyone will find it weird if someone called and looked for KAI XUAN but is asking him about KAI BOON, but since I assumed it was my cousin so I didn't think much about it, plus I am on a conversation with Lily, so yea. (So her role to distract me was neatly done? XD)****







And that night while I was busy on my laptop, suddenly the lights went off.





***Details again***:
Since I always unplug the laptop battery at home, my first reaction was to reach out my laptop battery and put in before the electricity got cut off and my laptop will just go *poof* shut down.

If you are laughing in front of the screen, yea I really did that. Logically speaking I wouldn't have enough time to do that if the electricity is off, but well, it's my reflex reaction you know. The dying struggle. haha XD






But things doesn't seem quite right, cause' the fan is working, my laptop didn't shut down, only the lights that went off. And the lights in the hall didn't go off too! And suddenly a gang of people came out holding a cake. Vola! A total surprise! Seriously. I have not suspected that at all, not even a bit.


Well I finally came to my senses when I recognized who are those people who surprised me. Since Lily called in the morning, she must be one of the culprits. XP And the other culprit(s) would be either Livia or Edrea I guess (Or maybe both).

Cake cutting. Seriously, I couldn't stop grinning when they came out holding the cake.

Ketua Penyelaras & Disiplin 09!

And of course the Ketua Disiplin partners! I've not seen this woman for so long weih!

But nevertheless, it's good to be surprised you know. Although you looked like an idiot throughout the process, but it's really heart warming to know that someone actually took the effort to surprise you. I seriously couldn't stop grinning when they came out holding the cake, yet at the same time feeling super akward cause' all my relatives are around minding their own business (The Uncles Aunties are busy with mahjongs LOL)




And after all the necessary "ceremonies", we crapped. A catch-up session after like 9 months weih! Talked about our studies, our futures, but mostly about our prefects life. Haha. The spotcheck sessions, about the discipline teachers, gossiped about people we liked and didn't like, our camps, stuffs like that. XP

Just so you know, the relationship among the committees during our last year wasn't that pleasant. But now that we think back, it was just a very minor thing. It's just that everyone had different opinion, everyone wanted their efforts to be recognized, that's all. There's no wrong in that, but we made it sounded like a big thing back then. XP



And seriously we crapped for hours. XD And of course, before leaving, a group photo is a must.

Blocking Kah Lok attempt success! And a blur Lily who moved.

A decent one. XP

The guys.

And the girls with me. Yea I had to act sissy cause' this is a "girls' photo". Don't laugh! (Ackmed: I KEEEL YU~~!)

And yeap, that officially marks the end of my teenage life. I am moving into my 20s now. Aww....old.....(never mind, I still look young. That's all that matters. XD)

I am getting TWO - O this year!

All photos are stolen from Livia. XD

Thanks for being the photographer of the day!

And of course, not to forget all those who wished me on my birthday itself. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I love you people. =D

Tata!

(Although I wish you would wish me sooner, but it took you so long to realize that it's my birthday)

Exam's Over

Mid Term's down! I think I did well...

Haha.

Can't go anywhere lately. My car's not back from its facial session yet. T_T

So right now, playing SDGO SEA like nobody's business.

But it's still in its beta period. and it's getting....boring. <.< I want more units!!! :P


Feel like playing's Taiwan server though. All my favourite units are there. 8D

Something like that. :P


Ok that's all for today. Bye bye. XD

Me is the taking exam tmr!

I know I shouldn't be here but hell, ACC 202 is too boring, especially Chapter 1. How I wished he'd just tell us all the history and information part of Chapter 1 will not be coming out. <.< At least then I know I should focus only on the important concepts. I rather study all the accounting assumptions than studying which foundation/board/committee did what in the past and what's their role now. ARRRGGGHHHH!!!! *screams*


Just a song for share that I am currently addicted to.

Tik Tok by 2PM

Bye bye. Back to study. :(

What am I into lately

I am into...new stuffs. Yeah. Haha. I am started to get hit by the Korean-fever. I know I am late. That shows that my immune system to fever is strong. Lol. Currenly into 2PM and SNSD's song. Do recommend me other nice songs. XD

Oi, I not so out one ok? I know Jaebeom is no longer in 2PM de leh!

But I still can't differentiate SNSD's members one from another. LOL.

I know I am bad at remembering people's faces and name. Oops. Especially for SNSD cause' they look too alike, like seriously.



And next, told ya I am into new stuff. So I gave my car a new look:

A goddamn sexy look I know.

Yea yea, I went into an accident. So I guess that count as "What I am into lately" as well. XD Kinda major accident for me this time. So yea. But luckily no one is hurt (except me!!! ><)

I am lazy to elaborate. So in conclusion, I bumped into another person's car who emergency braked during a RAINY DAY while I am on my way to fetch my mom. First time in my life that I went into police station. XD

And yea, that's my injury. A scratch on my knee for bumping into ppl's car's butt. I didn't feel much pain back then, but well, it's an annoying ache now whenever I bend. But thank goodness I managed to pull away (I steer away) after the impact. If I were to keep my steering straight, the impact would be harder and I might even have bone cracks.


So in conclusion, my sexy car is now in the workshop to get a new fresh look. Period. And whaddaphark la I'm just 3 months away from tearing off my P license. =.="

What I want to do before I start working

Some day in the future, I will definitely look back and strikethrough this list one by one. ;)

1. Learn nihongo
2. Learn dancing
3. Learn frisbee
4. Go for mroe cultural exchange programs
5. Play pop songs on guitar
6. Maybe learn Hangul as well...XP
7. Skydiving
8. Bungee jumping
9. Climb Mount Kinabalu
10. Maybe attend vocal lessons...?
11. Travel to Japan again (If got kaki teman)

老师的责任

今天 SPM 成绩放榜了！拿了成绩，肯定有人欢喜有人忧。

两年前，我也带着这一份期待前往学校拿成绩。但我，或许是信心饱满的那一小群，所以不感到紧张。拿了成绩，竟然比预期中的好。

万一考不好，升不上大学怎么办的情况，我连想都没想过。心里想的，就是 “考不好，没有奖学金很糗怎么办” 而已。我们一家从来不会担心会不会pass, 只会担心有没有A，最糟的话，就是有没有B。也许，在我家，拿好成绩是 “理所当然”，Fail，这个probability 几乎等于 0。

可是今天发生的事，让我知道好成绩不是必然。不是你要努力就可以拿到的。
有的人想努力，可是力有不逮。
有的人有天资可以努力，却不想努力。
有的人努力起来，却阴沟里翻船。

或许拿 5 个 credit，对我们这种名校毕业生来说易如反掌。升不上大学的可能性连想都没想过。但是，当我今天看了我学生的成绩单，我有一种爱莫能助的悲伤。他们有的科目很强，有的勉强过关。

以前，我考好成绩，只为了自己脸上有光。考不好的话，要你管？但是，从他们身上，我领悟到，有时候，你想考好成绩，不只是为了自己。有时候，可以就那么简单的，纯粹不想辜负相信你的人的期望：尤其是那些对你不离不弃的好老师。

今天，他的数学拿了B+。但他告诉我，他觉得很内疚，好像辜负了我。不过，我知道他尽了力。从两年前的Fei Lou，进步到 B+， 他真的努力了。我明白，他根本就不喜欢数学。PMR 根本没努力，就那么巧刚刚好 pass 了。他一看到数字就头大，却因为感觉得到我对他的期待，练习题作了又作，从不懂不会不晓，有些题连题目都不敢看就 skip 过，到今天的 B+，其实，我觉得他已经对我有了交待。

反而，我因为过分自信，低估了SPM 数学，为了不让他们感到混淆，一律只教最 basic 的题目。而去年的试卷，就是难了那么一点点。做法虽然一样，题目呈现的方式却有了少少的修改。对他们而言，这少少的修改就足以让他们致命。这，的确是我的疏忽。所以，他们拿不到 A，要内疚的不是他们，而是我。

套一件頭在 on call 36 里面说的，身为医生，只要我们多做那一点点，我们救的，不只是他表面的病，而是他的一生。而我们身为老师的，只要我们肯多关心学生多那一点，我们救的，不是他表面的成绩，而是他一生的未来。只要他们感觉到你的心意，再讨厌那科目都好，他都会尽力考好给你看。若每个老师都能多做那一点点，学生要 5 个 credit 上大学有多难？
 
有的老师，平日上课心不在焉，在学校里随便敷衍学生，放学了赶回家教补习。你能怪他吗？单凭老师那低微的薪金，不教补习，怎能活口？所以回到根本：如果要老师们全力以赴，交足100分予学生，那他们的酬报，最起码也应该要像个样。教书是一门很神圣，很专业的职责。可是老师们的薪金，比起律师，会计师，工程师，又算得了什么？

我妈说的没错。老师的薪金，在以前的市场可算是丰富；但这么多年的通膨，教师的薪金却没多大幅度的增长，那你说，怎能吸引人才报读教育系？人才少了，竞争少了，教师素质差了，你说，学生怎能好呢？

考得不好，不只是上不了大学这么简单。受伤的，还有他们的心灵。就算没有人会嘲笑他们，学生自己也会自卑，觉得比不上人家。马马虎虎的老师们，你们害的，不只是学生的成绩单，你们伤害的，是他们的未来，与他们脆弱的心灵！

所以，为人师表者责任重大。就算他们以后可能沦为低收入行业，但对于那些热血澎湃的老师们，我对你至上万二分的敬意。那些把老师当儿戏，说得出那种 “我因为不会读书所以不是读教育系咯” 的老师们，趁你没害惨学生之前，反省下，学下如何敬业吧！教师这职业不是因为读不上别科才让你随便将就一下的替代品。

On Call 36 小时 - Hippocratic Crush

容祖兒 Joey Yung - 連續劇
作曲：鄧智偉
填詞：林日曦
編曲：Johny Yim

歌詞
開首的一篇是某某出生　媽媽給寶寶奉上這一生頭一吻
開端之後或晴或暗　怎樣走就像連續戲也欠缺安穩
或者　於某集我可抬頭欣賞到你
或者　一轉念便要失去你
或者　轉折漸太多　遺忘怎擁抱你
或者　擁緊偏已斷氣

情人們一呼一吸相愛到底　結局或同樣
仍想將你我這幕　演得更理想
能修補即管修補　不要再想　再一刻人便缺氧
熟悉的歌曲　等與你合唱

新一章怎可是你我分開　可否改寫得像你我當初還相愛
只可惜上集難逆轉　傷感的下集仍然未播　我會修改
如果　當晚沒有分神來緊張佈置
如果　不必誤會再猜疑
如果　將對白說得平和　不加諷刺
如果　真的可有下次

情人們一呼一吸相愛到底　結局或同樣
仍然能拖緊彼此　走絕地雪霜
如能重修好一雙　不要再想　再一刻人便缺氧
明知可一起　不要再獨唱

情人們一呼一吸相愛到底　結局或同樣
仍想將你我這幕　演得更理想
如能重修好一雙　不要再想 再一刻誰亦要退下場
多得你在場 多得我在場 天空也在場 演好這一章 呼吸太無常




看完On Call 36 小时，实在有太多太多的感触。虽然剧本okok only (很多剧情都猜得到), but 对白真的能让你一语惊醒梦中人。give you a "like"! ;)

Outing

Sorry I have no photos taken. So I am just gonna write a short post about this. XP

Went out with Mandy, Shaun & Wai Keong to Sing K @Neway 1Utama. Esther's gang are there too but we each have our own stuffs to play with la. XP

1. Something happened to Wai Keong's car. XDDDD He and Shaun spent quite some effort to solved it.
2. Had lunch with Esther's gang while waiting for Shaun n Wai Keong. Crapped about Fiona's gamble, Ben's sexy smell, Mandy & Fiona's complicated relationship. XD
3. Sang like a boss from 2pm to 7pm for only RM16. (And has sexy voice after that)
4. Crapped during dinner @ Sushi King for 1.5 hour like that. About uni people, ppl's relationship, how to shine in life after graduating, etc etc.
5. Everyone took chance to "fish" during dinner. One termakan other ppl's food, another one spilled the soy sauce in front of the waiter, another almost flipped the plate over, another one dropped Wai Keong's tamago on the table, and blew rice from the mouth. XD
6. Saw 杨宗纬 running an autograph session there. XP

 Ok that's it? I guess so....hahaha. See ya. XD

學不會

總是學不會 再聰明一點
記得自我保護 必要時候講些 善意謊言
總是學不會 真愛也有現實面
不是誰情願 就能夠解決

一次爭吵 一個心結 累積著改變
內心疏遠 足夠秒殺 外表多濃烈
才發現愛 不代表一切
再真心 也會被阻絕
這世界 天天有詭雷 隨時會爆裂

還是學不會 少浪漫一點
拼命著想的事 未必帶來感動 或被感謝
還是學不會 解釋我最傷 最累
痛死都不願 怪誰

其实所有感情，不管亲情、爱情 ，抑或是友情，都是同样的道理吧？

是我这病人不肯疗伤，还是这伤口比我想象中还重？

可能你会说我放不开，但如果真的有人能让我耿耿于怀这样久，这人、这伤，真的不简单。

我以为我可以当没有一回事，原来有些事，发生了就是发生了。

玻璃碎了，补回也会有裂痕 ；

受伤了，缝后仍有疤痕。

或许，我要学会放手。

这次，让我任性一次。我不想用理性来面对感情事。

Memories

Went back to CHS today. Just to kepo a bit la, since my brother was having his scout camp in school so well....



Went to pay a visit to this room......

 

The room that is filled with so much of memories. Emotions, Joy, Cries, Affections, and Bonds.

 

And I had a look on the road that was once painted by us. Yes. it did looked cacat and senget, and still does. No matter how cacat it is, it is still our footstep. It is the school's memory of us. But how long will our footstep remain? The words "Guru Disp." are starting to fade away, just like our footstep.

We are old.

Some day, the school's memory of us will fade away completely, overwritten by the new generations. But no matter what, the memory that we shared together, of the room, of the school, will remain in our hearts.

Our 5 years of memory together, our teenage life, our youth, our stories. It is an unreplacable memory that we have built, one that we can be proud of.

Although I have left CHS for 3 years, but still, I want to say that

I am proud to be a CHSian.

And I believe all CHS graduates will always be proud to sing our cheer out aloud:

We are CHSians, mighty CHSians.

Everywhere we go, people want to know: who we are?

So we tell them:

We are CHSians, mighty CHSians!

Hope it works out

这头才骂自己笨，说自己蠢， 那头就一脚蹱下去。

原来当你喜欢的时候，做什么都可以。
被你搞到赌烂不爽不喜欢时，做什么都觉得很委屈。


希望这次不要再次失望。

我已经心痛不下了。

我蠢

噩运接二连三袭击
心灵城墙再度被毁

幹

迷失方向的同时
再被她狠狠截了一下
然后再被他重重地踹一腿

他妈的

满腹冤情
满腔委屈

天知地知我知你不知他不晓

下次不要再叫我做那种吃力不讨好的工作
辛苦完了没人知晓就算了
还要掉转来背负债责。

幹

没有人叫你做
幹嘛手多 脚多 钱多 时间多 口水多


自己作践是白痴
不知所谓讨苦吃
背后辛酸无人知
最怕心死无药治

不要再做无谓事
你们去死你的事
从此不关我的事

Rational

OK, I have some time to blog now.

Regarding my previous post, Ms. Tow Truck's incident has silent down. Now everyone is looking at Lynas.

I don't want to comment on what they happened, in fact yours truly is lazy too busy to follow with the whole incident. So instead of commenting on what happened when I just know pieces of here and there, I would just zip and comment on other things.

Our behaviour

Yeap. What Ms. Tow Truck says may be unclear, or you can say that she's distorting the fact (Although she explained herself afterwards, buy it or not it's your business). You can ask her to apologize. But seriously? Defaming her, Yelling at her, threatening her etc etc, just makes you an equal barbarian. If ever you wanna argue with her, argue with POINTS.


Yes.  I see many boiled up Malaysians comment like an idiot. You think expressing your dissatisfaction through facebook with all the boiled up words will make you any better?


And the same goes to Lynas incident.


You can scold BN UMNO MCA MIC like nobody's business on facebook, but hello? Like they will give a damn? Face it. You people scolding here are mostly underage people who have no voting rights yet. So like the hell they care? They can just go around buying the votes of other people. Like giving Siams citizenship.

And as long they win the 2/3 majority this time, dirty or not I don't know if they care, they can restructure the whole electoral district. Their area, make a big one into 10 small ones. Your area, 10 big ones into 1 BIGGER one.

BN: Problem?

So instead of wasting your time shouting on facebook being irrational barbarians acting hero-like, DO SOMETHING to make a change. Voice out, WITH POINTS, not merely kids scolding. Initiate petition signing, support good causes. ANALYSE critically before you jump into conclusions. Yes BN may be corrupted, but do not go around protesting before analysing from various perspective.

I am seriously sick of these talk big bullshitters on facebook spreading hate messages. IT DOES NOT help the situation AT ALL. And worse, get yourself sued by Ms. Tow Truck now. 

So people, be civilized when you speak. We argue with points, not scream like a moron. Or else, you are just acting like someone screaming in the public during "the debate".

Peace.

Quick Update

Okay people, I am goddamn tired now. But I have so many things in mind that I don't have time to share.

1. MCA's Miss Tow Truck
2. LYNAS

These two incidents were, and still are, creating an uproar on the Internet lately. What I want to say is, many people are being irrational at looking at these incidents. Elaboration on my arguments will be discussed on my blog when I am free, hopefully in the very near future. *fingers crossed*

Reluctantly Update

Sorry for not updating for 2 weeks.

No. My life is not boring. I have lotsa stuff to talk about actually. But I am just too busy to do so.


1. Xiau Wei's Farewell lunch. 

Had a farewell lunch at Opus, since she's flying off to University of Queensland.

And yea, she has flied to Brisbane last week. Hope everything goes well in UQ!

Though this may be a bit late, but I will surely miss you here. Aww....XP




2. Forever Alone Day
Yeap. Valentines' Day. Spent my whole day TEACHING. Sobs. But well, at least it's not forever alone on that day.

TOGETHER ALONE with Alyssa, Mei Yin, Ching Hua, Jun Yik and Wei How. XP We treated ourselves to Dominos pizza. XD

Photo credits to Alyssa.

Yeap. I taught for 5.5 hours that day. KESIAN NYA~~~~! T_T

Stalking Ching Hua. Forever alone doing notes.

So that's about my forever together alone night.



3. Helped out in Seminar
Basically it's just a whole day of being gulei. And yea, I had my very first ChaTime. Seriously, I think it's

OVERRATED

I mean, ok, it's a drink, it's cold, it has lotsa flavor, and...? I think it's too sweet for me so yea, sorry, I'm not a fans of ChaTime.




4. Started Year 2
New semester started, back to uni after 2.5 months of break. Seriously??? It's over? Lol. I guess I was too busy lifeless to notice that.

And yes. I am starting year 2 this year. Means by the end of next year, I am graduating and vola! I am gonna work. whaddaphark man.

Well, I planned to take 4 subjects this semester, but they insisted just to let me take 3, cause' I have not done the pre-requisite. Well although I can appeal and show them my good result, I decided to just follow what they suggest so I can score higher CGPA. Not worth to risk not getting scholarship just to go for intern during the last sem.



So basically that's it. Yea, I am goddamn lifeless lately. I am dealing with notes, NOTES, and MORE NOTES! Hence the lack of update. Gonna teach seminar this weekend. @.@






I didn't really have the mood to update, but just to keep the blog alive. Cause' most of my friends' blogs are pretty dead and there's nothing much to see actually. So I decided to be a nice guy to update just to entertain you guys. Chaoz.

Ang pao

Wee! This year's angpao has more "weight" that previous years!  :D

Okay, I am not gonna boast on how much I've got, nor embarrass myself for showing off at such "little bit only mah" in the eyes of the rich people. I am contented with what I have.


Then what's the purpose of this post? Today's post is just to share some food of thought for you guys. XP And I do hope you guys, especially Chinese friends, to spend some time reading at this.



Have you ever thank your parents for all the angpaos that you've received?
Some of you might be thinking "What about other relatives, uncle aunty who gave me angpao?"

Just so you know, when you are so happy receiving the RM10, RM50, or even RM100 red packets from your relatives, your parents are giving out the same/more or less the same amount to the children of theirs. The more you receive today, the more your parents will have to give the following year. Just be frank, Chinese cares a lot about "face". If you receive RM10 from someone today, the your parents will have to upgrade from RM5 to RM10 the following year, whether as a return gift, token or appreciation, gratitude or for their "face".

And most of the time, you parents are giving double or triple the amount you receive.

(you take 1 angpao, you mom is giving 3 angpaos to 3 other kids ma)

So if I wanna say all angpaos are given to you by ur parents, it is true to a certain degree, agree?

And your parents are putting a month of salary into ur pocket this CNY. So be glad.

Just FYI, giving red envelope during CNY is meant to be a blessing from the elderly to the youngsters. So it's not the amount that matters, but the blessing that you received. And this tradition is slowly eroded in China itself. Giving red envelope is like a match of wealth. The more you give, the more face/status you have. (Article here)

So next time, when you're complaining about the little amount that you receive, think about your parents. And if you're receiving a lot, be thankful to them too. 

So that's all for today! Tata! ;)

Chap Goh Mei Kat Noob's House!

CNY Has officially ended! Aww....so fast leh....

Anyway, my previous post updated you till my 初九, and today I am just gonna update you on my Chap Goh Mei aka Chinese Valentines' Day!.



So who did I celebrated with? I went to my Loupo Sui Lun's house to be lightbulb have some bro's session.

....

.......

............

 Okay, that's only part of the reason. The main reason is...

To See His Girlfriend.

Some photos to share before I continue the story....

There's a butterfly!

And that's when he goes "that butterfly will blink before it flies off". FYI it's Lee Hom's song 蝴蝶眨几次眼睛才学会飞行。

Yeap that's his girlfriend.

I am having diabetes dy lo....

Okay, so so dai zan jiong wanna see his girlfriend leh? Cause' he slipped his mouth and said he has a new target somewhere last year September/October like that. And then they *snap* got together after that.

And he just don't want to share the story how did they got together.

So yesterday, FINALLY, he's gonna spit the story and on top of that, bring his girl out. So cannot miss la!




And yea, we did a lot of stupid things and crapped a lot in front of his girlfriend. Trust me, we've controlled ourselves pretty well already. This is what happened after she left:

Stalking girls? Mana dare orh? He's stalking his girl. XD

Drolling in front of his girl's profile....

Sui Lun: My motivation to go online!

And yes, he said that! What da hell la, online oso need motivation....

Stalking....

Siang: I like her! XD

So yesterday's event should be very grand eh? Well yea.......I guess....hahahhaa. Only 3 of us made it: Me, Siang and KC.

You should not look at Sui Lun....nonono DON'T!!!

And well, cause' we guessed it should be revenge from the others since he ffk-ed us when we went sing k. haha. XD



Basically we were just too busy crapping so we didn't take much picchas! :(


But well, some camwhore pics for you.

This is call ban cool!

Stalking???

Er...I seriously dunno what is this...

Trust me, you really don't wanna know what are they discussing. hahahhaa

And yeap. Something happened that I shall not disclose here. hahahhaa. What I can is, Sui Lun I totally see you in a new light la bro. XP *Salute!* My boy is finally a big boy! *sobs*



So bye bye for now! ;)




PS:

Sui Lun: You all wanna go throw orange skin?

SueLyn: Why you keep saying orange skin? People throw the whole orange la!

Sui Lun: Yameh? Eh that's new thing for me!

SueLyn: So for the past 20 years you thought people are throwing orange SKIN????

Sui Lun: Er...yea.

Me: Beware bro! Some unknown Malay dude is gonna call you after taking your orange skin! Not to date you la...just to issue an summon for simply throwing rubbish. haha. XD 

Siang: Phew! He should be glad! Summon only, give give! Dun date can dy!