老师的责任

今天 SPM 成绩放榜了！拿了成绩，肯定有人欢喜有人忧。

两年前，我也带着这一份期待前往学校拿成绩。但我，或许是信心饱满的那一小群，所以不感到紧张。拿了成绩，竟然比预期中的好。

万一考不好，升不上大学怎么办的情况，我连想都没想过。心里想的，就是 “考不好，没有奖学金很糗怎么办” 而已。我们一家从来不会担心会不会pass, 只会担心有没有A，最糟的话，就是有没有B。也许，在我家，拿好成绩是 “理所当然”，Fail，这个probability 几乎等于 0。

可是今天发生的事，让我知道好成绩不是必然。不是你要努力就可以拿到的。
有的人想努力，可是力有不逮。
有的人有天资可以努力，却不想努力。
有的人努力起来，却阴沟里翻船。

或许拿 5 个 credit，对我们这种名校毕业生来说易如反掌。升不上大学的可能性连想都没想过。但是，当我今天看了我学生的成绩单，我有一种爱莫能助的悲伤。他们有的科目很强，有的勉强过关。

以前，我考好成绩，只为了自己脸上有光。考不好的话，要你管？但是，从他们身上，我领悟到，有时候，你想考好成绩，不只是为了自己。有时候，可以就那么简单的，纯粹不想辜负相信你的人的期望：尤其是那些对你不离不弃的好老师。

今天，他的数学拿了B+。但他告诉我，他觉得很内疚，好像辜负了我。不过，我知道他尽了力。从两年前的Fei Lou，进步到 B+， 他真的努力了。我明白，他根本就不喜欢数学。PMR 根本没努力，就那么巧刚刚好 pass 了。他一看到数字就头大，却因为感觉得到我对他的期待，练习题作了又作，从不懂不会不晓，有些题连题目都不敢看就 skip 过，到今天的 B+，其实，我觉得他已经对我有了交待。

反而，我因为过分自信，低估了SPM 数学，为了不让他们感到混淆，一律只教最 basic 的题目。而去年的试卷，就是难了那么一点点。做法虽然一样，题目呈现的方式却有了少少的修改。对他们而言，这少少的修改就足以让他们致命。这，的确是我的疏忽。所以，他们拿不到 A，要内疚的不是他们，而是我。

套一件頭在 on call 36 里面说的，身为医生，只要我们多做那一点点，我们救的，不只是他表面的病，而是他的一生。而我们身为老师的，只要我们肯多关心学生多那一点，我们救的，不是他表面的成绩，而是他一生的未来。只要他们感觉到你的心意，再讨厌那科目都好，他都会尽力考好给你看。若每个老师都能多做那一点点，学生要 5 个 credit 上大学有多难？
 
有的老师，平日上课心不在焉，在学校里随便敷衍学生，放学了赶回家教补习。你能怪他吗？单凭老师那低微的薪金，不教补习，怎能活口？所以回到根本：如果要老师们全力以赴，交足100分予学生，那他们的酬报，最起码也应该要像个样。教书是一门很神圣，很专业的职责。可是老师们的薪金，比起律师，会计师，工程师，又算得了什么？

我妈说的没错。老师的薪金，在以前的市场可算是丰富；但这么多年的通膨，教师的薪金却没多大幅度的增长，那你说，怎能吸引人才报读教育系？人才少了，竞争少了，教师素质差了，你说，学生怎能好呢？

考得不好，不只是上不了大学这么简单。受伤的，还有他们的心灵。就算没有人会嘲笑他们，学生自己也会自卑，觉得比不上人家。马马虎虎的老师们，你们害的，不只是学生的成绩单，你们伤害的，是他们的未来，与他们脆弱的心灵！

所以，为人师表者责任重大。就算他们以后可能沦为低收入行业，但对于那些热血澎湃的老师们，我对你至上万二分的敬意。那些把老师当儿戏，说得出那种 “我因为不会读书所以不是读教育系咯” 的老师们，趁你没害惨学生之前，反省下，学下如何敬业吧！教师这职业不是因为读不上别科才让你随便将就一下的替代品。

On Call 36 小时 - Hippocratic Crush

容祖兒 Joey Yung - 連續劇
作曲：鄧智偉
填詞：林日曦
編曲：Johny Yim

歌詞
開首的一篇是某某出生　媽媽給寶寶奉上這一生頭一吻
開端之後或晴或暗　怎樣走就像連續戲也欠缺安穩
或者　於某集我可抬頭欣賞到你
或者　一轉念便要失去你
或者　轉折漸太多　遺忘怎擁抱你
或者　擁緊偏已斷氣

情人們一呼一吸相愛到底　結局或同樣
仍想將你我這幕　演得更理想
能修補即管修補　不要再想　再一刻人便缺氧
熟悉的歌曲　等與你合唱

新一章怎可是你我分開　可否改寫得像你我當初還相愛
只可惜上集難逆轉　傷感的下集仍然未播　我會修改
如果　當晚沒有分神來緊張佈置
如果　不必誤會再猜疑
如果　將對白說得平和　不加諷刺
如果　真的可有下次

情人們一呼一吸相愛到底　結局或同樣
仍然能拖緊彼此　走絕地雪霜
如能重修好一雙　不要再想　再一刻人便缺氧
明知可一起　不要再獨唱

情人們一呼一吸相愛到底　結局或同樣
仍想將你我這幕　演得更理想
如能重修好一雙　不要再想 再一刻誰亦要退下場
多得你在場 多得我在場 天空也在場 演好這一章 呼吸太無常




看完On Call 36 小时，实在有太多太多的感触。虽然剧本okok only (很多剧情都猜得到), but 对白真的能让你一语惊醒梦中人。give you a "like"! ;)

Outing

Sorry I have no photos taken. So I am just gonna write a short post about this. XP

Went out with Mandy, Shaun & Wai Keong to Sing K @Neway 1Utama. Esther's gang are there too but we each have our own stuffs to play with la. XP

1. Something happened to Wai Keong's car. XDDDD He and Shaun spent quite some effort to solved it.
2. Had lunch with Esther's gang while waiting for Shaun n Wai Keong. Crapped about Fiona's gamble, Ben's sexy smell, Mandy & Fiona's complicated relationship. XD
3. Sang like a boss from 2pm to 7pm for only RM16. (And has sexy voice after that)
4. Crapped during dinner @ Sushi King for 1.5 hour like that. About uni people, ppl's relationship, how to shine in life after graduating, etc etc.
5. Everyone took chance to "fish" during dinner. One termakan other ppl's food, another one spilled the soy sauce in front of the waiter, another almost flipped the plate over, another one dropped Wai Keong's tamago on the table, and blew rice from the mouth. XD
6. Saw 杨宗纬 running an autograph session there. XP

 Ok that's it? I guess so....hahaha. See ya. XD

學不會

總是學不會 再聰明一點
記得自我保護 必要時候講些 善意謊言
總是學不會 真愛也有現實面
不是誰情願 就能夠解決

一次爭吵 一個心結 累積著改變
內心疏遠 足夠秒殺 外表多濃烈
才發現愛 不代表一切
再真心 也會被阻絕
這世界 天天有詭雷 隨時會爆裂

還是學不會 少浪漫一點
拼命著想的事 未必帶來感動 或被感謝
還是學不會 解釋我最傷 最累
痛死都不願 怪誰

其实所有感情，不管亲情、爱情 ，抑或是友情，都是同样的道理吧？

是我这病人不肯疗伤，还是这伤口比我想象中还重？

可能你会说我放不开，但如果真的有人能让我耿耿于怀这样久，这人、这伤，真的不简单。

我以为我可以当没有一回事，原来有些事，发生了就是发生了。

玻璃碎了，补回也会有裂痕 ；

受伤了，缝后仍有疤痕。

或许，我要学会放手。

这次，让我任性一次。我不想用理性来面对感情事。

Memories

Went back to CHS today. Just to kepo a bit la, since my brother was having his scout camp in school so well....



Went to pay a visit to this room......

 

The room that is filled with so much of memories. Emotions, Joy, Cries, Affections, and Bonds.

 

And I had a look on the road that was once painted by us. Yes. it did looked cacat and senget, and still does. No matter how cacat it is, it is still our footstep. It is the school's memory of us. But how long will our footstep remain? The words "Guru Disp." are starting to fade away, just like our footstep.

We are old.

Some day, the school's memory of us will fade away completely, overwritten by the new generations. But no matter what, the memory that we shared together, of the room, of the school, will remain in our hearts.

Our 5 years of memory together, our teenage life, our youth, our stories. It is an unreplacable memory that we have built, one that we can be proud of.

Although I have left CHS for 3 years, but still, I want to say that

I am proud to be a CHSian.

And I believe all CHS graduates will always be proud to sing our cheer out aloud:

We are CHSians, mighty CHSians.

Everywhere we go, people want to know: who we are?

So we tell them:

We are CHSians, mighty CHSians!

Hope it works out

这头才骂自己笨，说自己蠢， 那头就一脚蹱下去。

原来当你喜欢的时候，做什么都可以。
被你搞到赌烂不爽不喜欢时，做什么都觉得很委屈。


希望这次不要再次失望。

我已经心痛不下了。

我蠢

噩运接二连三袭击
心灵城墙再度被毁

幹

迷失方向的同时
再被她狠狠截了一下
然后再被他重重地踹一腿

他妈的

满腹冤情
满腔委屈

天知地知我知你不知他不晓

下次不要再叫我做那种吃力不讨好的工作
辛苦完了没人知晓就算了
还要掉转来背负债责。

幹

没有人叫你做
幹嘛手多 脚多 钱多 时间多 口水多


自己作践是白痴
不知所谓讨苦吃
背后辛酸无人知
最怕心死无药治

不要再做无谓事
你们去死你的事
从此不关我的事

Rational

OK, I have some time to blog now.

Regarding my previous post, Ms. Tow Truck's incident has silent down. Now everyone is looking at Lynas.

I don't want to comment on what they happened, in fact yours truly is lazy too busy to follow with the whole incident. So instead of commenting on what happened when I just know pieces of here and there, I would just zip and comment on other things.

Our behaviour

Yeap. What Ms. Tow Truck says may be unclear, or you can say that she's distorting the fact (Although she explained herself afterwards, buy it or not it's your business). You can ask her to apologize. But seriously? Defaming her, Yelling at her, threatening her etc etc, just makes you an equal barbarian. If ever you wanna argue with her, argue with POINTS.


Yes.  I see many boiled up Malaysians comment like an idiot. You think expressing your dissatisfaction through facebook with all the boiled up words will make you any better?


And the same goes to Lynas incident.


You can scold BN UMNO MCA MIC like nobody's business on facebook, but hello? Like they will give a damn? Face it. You people scolding here are mostly underage people who have no voting rights yet. So like the hell they care? They can just go around buying the votes of other people. Like giving Siams citizenship.

And as long they win the 2/3 majority this time, dirty or not I don't know if they care, they can restructure the whole electoral district. Their area, make a big one into 10 small ones. Your area, 10 big ones into 1 BIGGER one.

BN: Problem?

So instead of wasting your time shouting on facebook being irrational barbarians acting hero-like, DO SOMETHING to make a change. Voice out, WITH POINTS, not merely kids scolding. Initiate petition signing, support good causes. ANALYSE critically before you jump into conclusions. Yes BN may be corrupted, but do not go around protesting before analysing from various perspective.

I am seriously sick of these talk big bullshitters on facebook spreading hate messages. IT DOES NOT help the situation AT ALL. And worse, get yourself sued by Ms. Tow Truck now. 

So people, be civilized when you speak. We argue with points, not scream like a moron. Or else, you are just acting like someone screaming in the public during "the debate".

Peace.